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glance　that　she　turned　towards　Ethel；　as　she　heard　her　answer　by　a
sigh。

These　years　had　dealt　more　kindly　with　Etheldred's　outward
appearance。　　They　had　rounded　her　angles；　softened　her　features；　and
tinged　her　cheeks　with　a　touch　of　red；　that　took　off　from　the
surrounding　sallowness。　　She　held　herself　better；　had　learned　to　keep
her　hair　in　order；　and　the　more　womanly　dress；　plain　though　it　was；
improved　her　figure　more　than　could　have　been　hoped　in　the　days　of
her　lank；　gawky　girlhood。　　No　one　could　call　her　pretty；　but　her
countenance　had　something　more　than　ever　pleasing　in　the　animated　and
thoughtful　expression　on　those　marked　features。　　She　was　sitting　near
the　window；　with　a　book；　a　dictionary；　and　pencil；　as　she　replied　to
Margaret；　with　the　sigh　that　made　her　sister　smile。

〃Poor　Ethel！　I　condole　with　you。〃

〃And　I　wonder　at　you！〃　said　Ethel；　〃especially　as　Flora　and　Mrs。
Hoxton　say　it　is　all　for　your　sake；〃　then；　nettled　by　Margaret's
laugh；　〃Such　a　nice　occupation　for　her；　poor　thing；　as　if　you　were
Mrs。　Hoxton；　and　had　no　resource　but　fancy…work。〃

〃You　know　I　am　base　enough　to　be　so　amused；〃　said　Margaret；　〃but；
seriously；　Ethel　dear；　I　cannot　bear　to　see　you　so　much　hurt　by　it。
I　did　not　know　you　were　really　grieved。〃

〃Grieved！　　I　am　ashamedsickened！〃　cried　Ethel　vehemently。　　〃Poor
Cocksmoor！　　As　soon　as　anything　is　done　there；　Flora　must　needs　go
about　implying　that　we　have　set　some　grand　work　in　hand；　and　want
only　means〃

〃Stop；　Ethel；　Flora　does　not　boast。〃

〃No；　she　does　not　boast。　　I　wish　she　did！　　That　would　be
straightforward　and　simple；　but　she　has　too　good　taste　for　thatso
she　does　worseshe　tells　a　little；　and　makes　that　go　a　long　way；　as
if　she　were　keeping　back　a　great　deal！　　You　don't　know　how　furious　it
makes　me！〃

〃Ethel！〃

〃So；〃　said　Ethel；　disregarding；　〃she　stirs　up　all　Stoneborough　to
hear　what　the　Miss　Mays　are　doing　at　Cocksmoor。　　So　the　Ladies'
Committee　must　needs　have　their　finger　in！　　Much　they　cared　for　the
place　when　it　was　wild　and　neglected！　　But　they　go　to　inspect　Cherry
and　her　schoolMrs。　Ledwich　and　alland；　back　they　come；　shocked
no　system；　no　order；　the　mistress　untrained；　the　school　too　small；
with　no　apparatus！　　They　all　run　about　in　despair；　as　if　we　had　ever
asked　them　to　help　us。　　And　so　Mrs。　Hoxton；　who　cares　for　poor
children　no　more　than　for　puppy…dogs；　but　who　can't　live　without
useless　work；　and　has　filled　her　house　as　full　of　it　as　it　can　hold；
devises　a　bazaara　field　for　her　trumpery；　and　a　show…off　for　all
the　young　ladies；　and　Flora　treats　it　like　an　inspiration！　　Off　they
trot；　to　the　old　Assembly　Rooms。　　I　trusted　that　the　smallness　of
them　would　have　knocked　it　on　the　head；　but；　still　worse；　Flora's
talking　of　it　makes　Mr。　Rivers　think　it　our　pet　scheme；　so；　what　does
he　do　but　offer　his　park；　and　so　we　are　to　have　a　regular　fancy　fair；
and　Cocksmoor　School　will　be　founded　in　vanity　and　frivolity！　　But　I
believe　you　like　it！〃

〃I　am　not　sure　of　my　own　feeling；〃　said　Margaret。　　〃It　has　been
settled　without　our　interposition；　and　I　have　never　been　able　to　talk
it　over　calmly　with　you。　　Papa　does　not　seem　to　disapprove。〃

〃No；〃　said　Ethel。　　〃He　will　only　laugh；　and　say　it　will　spare　him　a
great　many　of　Mrs。　Hoxton's　nervous　attacks。　　He　thinks　of　it　nearly
as　I　do；　at　the　bottom；　but　I　cannot　get　him　to　stop　it；　nor　even　to
say　he　does　not　wish　Flora　to　sell。〃

〃I　did　not　understand　that　you　really　had　such　strong　objections；〃
said　Margaret。　　〃I　thought　it　was　only　as　a　piece　of　folly；　and〃

〃And　interference　with　my　Cocksmoor？〃　said　Ethel。　　I　had　better　own
to　what　may　be　wrong　personal　feeling　at　first。〃

〃I　can　hardly　call　it　wrong；〃　said　Margaret　tenderly；　〃considering
what　Cocksmoor　is　to　you；　and　what　the　Ladies'　Committee　is。〃

〃Oh；　Margaret；　if　the　lawful　authorityif　a　good　clergyman　would
only　come；　how　willingly　would　I　work　under　him！　　But　Mrs。　Ledwich
andit　is　like　having　all　the　Spaniards　and　savages　spoiling
Robinson　Crusoe's　desert　island！〃

〃It　is　not　come　to　that　yet；〃　said　Margaret；　〃but　about　the　fancy
fair。　　We　all　know　that　the　school　is　very　much　wanted。〃

〃Yes；　but　I　hoped　to　wait　in　patience　and　perseverance；　and　do　it　at
last。〃

〃All　yourself？〃

〃Now；　Margaret！　you　know　I　was　glad　of　Alan's　help。〃

〃I　should　think　so！〃　said　Margaret。　〃You　need　not　make　a　favour　of
that！〃

〃Yes；　but；　don't　you　see；　that　came　as　almsgiving；　in　the　way　which
brings　a　blessing。　　We　want　nothing　to　make　us　give　money　and　work　to
Cocksmoor。　　We　do　all　we　can　already；　and　I　don't　want　to　get　a　fine
bag　or　a　ridiculous　pincushion　in　exchange！〃

〃Not　you；　but〃

〃Well；　for　the　rest。　　If　they　like　to　offer　their　money；　well　and
good；　the　better　for　them；　but　why　must　they　not　give　it　to
Cocksmoorbut　for　that　unnatural　butterfly　of　Blanche's；　with　black
pins　for　horns；　that　they　will　go　and　sell　at　an　extortionate　rate。〃

〃The　price　will　be　given　for　Cocksmoor's　sake！〃

〃Pooh！　Margaret。　　Do　you　think　it　is　for　Cocksmoor's　sake　that　Lady
Leonora　Langdale　and　her　fine　daughter　come　down　from　London？　　Would
Mrs。　Hoxton　spend　the　time　in　making　frocks　for　Cocksmoor　children
that　she　does　in　cutting　out　paper；　and　stuffing　glass　bottles　with
it？　　Let　people　be　honestalms；　or　pleasure；　or　vanity！　let　them　say
which　they　mean；　but　don't　make　charity　the　excuse　for　the　others；
and；　above　all；　don't　make　my　poor　Cocksmoor　the　victim　of　it。〃

〃This　is　very　severe；〃　said　Margaret；　pausing；　almost　confounded。
〃Do　you　think　no　charity　worth　having　but　what　is　given　on　unmixed
motives？　　Who；　then；　could　give？〃

〃Margaretwe　see　much　evil　arise　in　the　best…planned　institutions；
nay；　in　what　are　not　human。　　Don't　you　think　we　ought　to　do　our
utmost　to　have　no　flaw　in　the　foundation？　　Schools　are　not　such
perfect　places　that　we　can　build　them　without　fear；　and；　if　the　means
are　to　be　raised　by　a　bargain　for　amusementif　they　are　to　come　from
frivolity　instead　of　self…denial；　I　am　afraid　of　them。　　I　do　not　mean
that　Cocksmoor　has　not　been　the　joy　of　my　life；　and　of　Mary's；　but
that　was　not　because　we　did　it　for　pleasure。〃

〃No！〃　said　Margaret；　sighing；　〃you　found　pleasure　by　the　way。　　But
why　did　you　not　say　all　this　to　Flora？〃

〃It　is　of　no　use　to　talk　to　Flora；〃　said　Ethel；　〃she　would　say　it　was
high…flown　and　visionary。　　Oh！　she　wants　it　for　the　bazaar's　own
sake；　and　that　is　one　reason　why　I　hate　it。〃

〃Now；　Ethel！〃

〃I　do　believe　it　was　very　unfortunate　for　Flora　that　the　Hoxtons　took
to　patronising　her；　because　Norman　would　not　be　patronised。　　Ever
since　it　began；　her　mind　has　been　full　of　visitings；　and　parties；　and
county　families；　and　she　has　left　off　the　home　usefulness　she　used　to
care　about。〃

〃But　you　are　old　enough　for　that；〃　said　Margaret。　　〃It　would　be　hard
to　keep　Flora　at　home；　now　that　you　can　take　her　place；　and　do　not
care　for　going　out。　　One　of　us　must　be　the　representative　Miss　May；
you　know；　and　keep　up　the　civilities；　and　you　may　think　yourself
lucky　it　is　not　you。〃

〃If　it　was　only　that；　I　should　not　care；　but　I　may　as　well　tell　you；
Margaret；　for　it　is　a　weight　to　me。　　It　is　not　the　mere　pleasure　in
gaietiesFlora　cares　for　them；　in　themselves；　as　little　as　I　donor
is　it　neighbourliness；　as　a　duty　to　others；　for；　you　may　observe；　she
always　gets　off　any　engagement　to　the　Wards；　or　any　of　the　town　folk；
to　whom　it　would　be　a　gratification　to　have　hershe　either　eludes
them；　or　sends　me。　　The　thing　is；　that　she　is　always　trying　to　be
with　the　great　people；　the　county　set；　and　I　don't　think　that　is　the
safe　way　of　going　on。〃

Margaret　mused　sadly。　　〃You　frighten　me；　Ethel！　　I　cannot　say　it　is
not　so；　and　these　are　so　like　the　latent　faults　that　dear　mamma's
letter　spoke　of〃

Ethel　sat　meditating；　and　at　last　said；　〃I　wish　I　had　not　told　you！
I　don't　always　believe　it　myself；　and　it　is　so　unkind；　and　you　will
make　yourself　unhappy　too。　　I　ought　not　to　have　thought　it　of　her！
Think　of　her　ever…ready　kindness　and　helpfulness；　her　pretty
courteous　ways　to　the　very　least；　her　obligingness　and　tact！〃

〃Yes；〃　said　Margaret；　〃she　is　one　of　the　kindest　people　there　is；　and
I　am　sure　that　she　thought　the　gaining　funds　for　Cocksmoor　was　the
best　thing　to　be　done；　that　you　would　be　pleased；　and　a　great　deal　of
pleasant　occupation　provided　for　us　all。〃

〃That　is　the　bright　side；　the　surface　side；〃　said　Ethel。

〃And　not　an　untrue　one；〃　said　Margaret；　〃Meta　will　not　be　vain；　and
will　work　the　more　happily　for　Cocksmoor's　sake。　　Mary　and　Blanche；
poor　Mrs。　Boulder；　and　many　good　ladies　who　hitherto　have　not　known
how　to　help　Cocksmoor；　will　do　so　now　with　a　good　will；　and　though　it
is　not　what　we　should　have　chosen；　I　think　we　had　better　take　it　in
good　part。〃

〃You　think　so？〃

〃Yes；　indeed　I　do。　　If　you　go　about　with　that　dismal　face　and　strong
disapproval；　it　will　really　seem　as　if　it　was　the　having　your
dominion　muddled　with　that　you　dislike。　　Besides；　it　is　putting
yourself　forward　to　censure　what　is　not　absolutely　wrong　in　itself；
and　that　cannot　be　desirable。〃

〃No；〃　said　Ethel；　〃but　I　cannot　help　being　sorry　for　Cocksmoor。　　I
thought　patience　would　prepare　the　way；　and　the　means　be　granted　in